Darlene and I had some words with each other. She has, I think, been pretty mean to me now for sometime.. The other night she said..she missed LaDawna and she did not come and see us enough and that she was going to be sad when she came and then left.
I said well we can go and visit. Darlene came back and said DO NOT SAY WE. I HATE it when you say WE. I said..sorry I did not mean that we were a couple.
She has been saying things now for sometime.. She blames me for her life. She has told me that I destroyed her life by marrying her. (Marry here when she was 18 and I was 26. We were married for 12 years until she decided she wanted out of it. That was about 27 years ago. I am 62 now and she is 55.)
Anyway.. she has been snapping at me and using a tone that I do not like.. I would not take it from anyone other than her. I know she has had a hard life and she is under a great deal of stress.
She got off the phone with her mother and was upset by something her mother said.. I said..why do you call her. She using that tone and look..that I do not like.. said because SHE IS MY MOTHER. And I told her ..well your mother is a fucking bitch. (Her mother has been calling me names since she first met me and her mother did everything she could to break up our marriage. She ..well has not been a nice person..would be to put it mild.)
Darlene said..well why don't you call YOUR mother. I said, of course, because she is dead. Darlene knew that of course.
We exchanged a few more words. Darlene said.. do not even talk to me. I said I will try and not talk to you.
Then of course.. our daughter and son-in-law got here from CA. We have not seen them in over four years. Not sure if they could tell there was a problem or not. We were all in the kitchen talking.
Darlene was not like this until she signed to buy that house. I do know that Darlene has a real problem with stress and worry. Jimmy and I have been here about two years and Darlene and I have not had any problems until the last few weeks or month...Just from the minute she signed to get the house.
From the first time that Jimmy and I got here Darlene has been very nice. She has told people ...how much help we have been.. How she is making much more money than before.. Telling people how broke she was until years ago I gave her a computer and got her on the Internet.
But..now..She looks at me with hate on her face and her voice sounds like she wants to spit on me.
I worry about the stress on Jimmy. He does not need it. He does not need to hear from his mother what a bad person I am.. He sure does not need to hear from me anything bad about his mother.
Over all the years.. I never said bad things about their mother. The number one person to trash me and talk about about me has been Darlene's mother. I think she is 82 now. So maybe I can out live her. Then Darlene has had periods were she has talked about about me and times when she almost would come to my defense.
People that have been reading my diary over the years...Were surprised that Jimmy and I moved in here. Everyone is surprised that an ex-wife and ex-husband are living in the same house. Until the last few weeks or month..It was never a problem.
Darlene will close on the house on Thursday. Russ will have his doctor's appointment on Friday. She is going to see the doctor on Wednesday. Maybe she will return to her normal state of mind after all this is taken care of.. maybe when we get moved the stress level will go down and she will be OK. I hope that is what happens.
However.. she would not agree and would see things in a different way.. But.. She caused me a lot of pain and treated me very bad when she decided she wanted to end the our 12 years of being married. The way she is acting now.. and added to that ..and brings back all those feelings of the way she treated me.. A way that I sure never deserved. So.. I am pissed.. And I do not think I can forget and forgive.
My daughter and son-in-law went to a motel to spend the night.
I will be going to the post office tomorrow. My daughter (LaDawna) and Darlene are going to Wal-Mart to get a blender. The blender is for Russell.
Russell is doing great and being very good. He is eating, well not eating..maybe drinking, meals with us and sitting down and talking to us. I just think he is being very good. They are going to put him to asleep on Friday and they are going to start an IV to do it. They do not expect him to have any pain, but they did give Dar an Rx for pain medication. He is being very nice. I am sure he is worried.
After having written the above.. and reading it.. I think if any family members are readying my blog/diary..they might want to stop. My Jimmy and Hilary both have a diary and I never read them. I think blogs, diary, weblogs are great but I suspect that family members should not read them. I suspect you could say 50 great things about a family member and if you say one bad thing..they are going to be upset for life.
I know that kids like to do these online journals. I have read some of them. I have also read were they were in trouble with kids at school because of something they wrote. Maybe it is not a good idea for anyone you know to read your blog.
I wonder how many people write about the job and their boss. I wonder how many co-worker and bosses end up reading the blog.
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